there came this point. when i became so obsessed with bettering myself.
that i slammed myself against a proverbial wall because i continually let myself down.
"tomorrow is another day"
"make tomorrow better"
all those good things, but there came this point where...i think on it all too much.
and instead of doing the better. i sulk in the worse.

please. just look at my resume.
see that i need a change. and try as i might to change everything, nothing will
unless my placement changes.
i am tired of looking in the mirror and seeing ugly.
seeing dead weight at work.
seeing complacency.
seeing a dreamer that has yet to wake up.

what it boils down to is that i am tired of thinking about myself.
i want to turn my focus onto something more interesting.
the pretend narcissism has gotten olde and i am ready for new obsessions.